Thursday, November 24, 2005

I am opaque

Or possibly translucent, on a good day.

Clearly (hyuk hyuk) I'm not in any position to assess myself accurately. But the fact is that in spite of my best intentions, I'm obviously not as willing/able to share as much of my life as I expected/hoped. Not that I'm lying, or even glossing over things. But the fact that I haven't been able to post lately, due to some shit that has been going on here on my end the past couple of weeks (well, longer really, but it manifested itself recently), certainly demonstrates that I'm not ready to completely bare myself.

I'm ok, my husband and pets and friends and family are ok, no worries. Well, some worries, but none of the immediate sort.

I'm tempted to poke my finger in the wound and examine it further - *why* can't I talk about things? What possible harm could it do? But my excessive need for self-analysis is part of the issue here :~P

Sorry for the cryptic nature of this post. Basically, it's an apology for not posting in so long, and an assurance that I had reason. Just not anything I feel like talking about here and/or now. Sorry!


Kyahgirl said...

When you're ready, you're ready. I will keep checking to see what's on your mind.
If you want to talk privately, you're welcome to mail me.



Trina said...

(((L))) Thanks so much!

Kate said...

I don't bare all on my blog either. Some people do, and that's cool, and some people don't, and that's cool too. No worries. This is YOUR blog so you can do what you damn well please! :-) I enjoy reading it, so like Laura, I will keep checking. Hope everything works out for the best. (((T)))).

cjblue said...

I love reading what you write, regardless of the topic. You write about whatever you are able, and we'll keep reading. But please, keep writing.

I *know* you have stuff to say! ;-)


red-queen said...


I sometimes go weeks between posts, too. Not that i don't have anything to say, but some of it i'm just not willing to air in a public forum, and it's hard to write about other than what's really on my mind.

Hang in there!