tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12438564.post6591148142960831445..comments2024-01-07T02:38:29.685-05:00Comments on my life my words my mind: Common Sense - Part 4 of ?Trinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08711876205793925101noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12438564.post-9225440396204791272008-03-03T04:10:00.000-05:002008-03-03T04:10:00.000-05:00(((M))) Thanks so much for reading and commenting....(((M))) Thanks so much for reading and commenting.<BR/><BR/>I am working on this stuff, though not as diligently as I should be. I have a lot of knowledge and tools at my disposal, some of which I'm using, but in the spirit of honestly I have to say I'm not trying very hard at the moment.<BR/><BR/>That's part of the problem with this issue - when things get bad, it goes from being a problem to being a solution/coping mechanism. And since I'm still working though my most recent loss (and some other stuff I don't talk about here out of bizarre superstition), it is currently more of a help than a hindrance. I know that is twisted and wrong, and probably should be addressed in more detail, but I don't know how without being overly specific and possibly upsetting people more than I already do.<BR/><BR/>If it helps, I'm not purging more than twice a day. I'm making sure I get adequate nutrition. And I'm not doing anything that sends my electrolytes plunging. Certainly not into anything resembling a territory that makes a heart attack a possibility.<BR/><BR/>All this sounds like excuse-making, and I know part of it is. I need to post on what I do that works, in terms of eating without needing to purge. And I maybe should address why some of the "dangers of bulimia" aren't as much of a problem for me. I just worry that it will skirt that "pro-mia" area, when the last thing I want to do is *encourage* people to engage in this sort of thing.<BR/><BR/>In case anyone is reading these comments and I haven't been crystal-clear, if I could do it all over again, I would *never* have started down the road to bulimia. Ever. I don't know what might have happened instead, but I cannot state strongly enough that ANYthing would have been preferable to this.Trinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08711876205793925101noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12438564.post-87169421843602401732008-03-02T10:30:00.000-05:002008-03-02T10:30:00.000-05:00I came to say Rabbit, Rabbit ... and stayed to rea...I came to say Rabbit, Rabbit ... and stayed to read about this, I think, valid comparison. The point that leaps out at me is "both can kill you" and I'm hoping you're taking care of yourself in the ways you need to. It's courageous to take hard looks at what's going on but please tell me you're working on this terribly difficult part of your life, T. I'm not sure I believe in cures of anything anymore, just the day to day, every day decisions that make life more positive than negative. My thoughts are with you in that struggle. xoxomireillehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02012296353550408831noreply@blogger.com